Giving Gives Control, Which Alphas LOVE
Here is the part that should scare the LuLu Lemons (high end leggings) off you:
God GIVES. Are you good at receiving?
Hint: If you can't take a compliment, ask for help or be corrected, that's a NO.
That means you are MISSING out on your good. Your ship is sailing without you Alpha because you want to "pay your own way."
Stop it (my two favorite coaching words).
Stop being so concerned with what you are DOING (giving is often an action managed by the head/ego) and get concerned with what you are ALLOWING to flow in to you.
If you are like most Alphas, you're pissed because your outflow is always larger than your in flow. THAT'S YOUR FAULT.
You will need to practice receiving. You won't even see most of the opportunities around you to receive yet, but begin anyway.
Receiving requires you to trust the giver, trust you'll get and get enough.
Things you are weak in. Get stronger. Stop being a Master Giver and become a Master Receiver.